Tuesday, February 2, 2016


As the days are slowly becoming longer and more light illuminates the recesses of former dark winter days, I am beginning to feel shimmers of hope for Spring. She is just around the corner. I heard her whisper her silent arrival today. The buds are swelling and the shoots are pushing their way through the earth. 
The elegant starkness of Winter is beginning to melt away.

These are images taken this week, dried and simple beauties, surrounding a gorgeous vintage image of blue birds that one of my favorite people sent to me in a generous care package. 
Water and seeds are left out daily hoping that these sweet blue birds might come back. 
The camera is ready for the opportunity to capture them again as they sing that special song that makes the heart sing.
It is week five of my doctoral program. I am grateful for the opportunity to further my study of the medicine in these changing times. I am writing, researching and learning new things daily, all the while, coming back into the knowing that any day now, her majesty will surprise us once again with daffodils, magnolias and hanging wisteria.

Sunday, December 20, 2015

From Darkness to Illumination

These have been the darkest days of the year, marked by a visit from a great horned owl that has been singing his songs in the middle of the night and at first morning light in the woods. It has been a gift to have him here, as well as the female that he serenaded outside of my window. One of the qualities of owl medicine is that it asks us to see through the darkness as they have excellent night vision. 
I love these dark and velvety night skies that show off beautiful sparkly Winter constellations and distant planets. 
During this time of the year I dive into the classics of the medicine and savor each word and translation. They are delicious, like morsels of something sweet and rich. I recently read a beautiful description of the Water element and its energy as it relates to the famed and revered Kunlun Mountain by Lorie Eve Decher in her book Five Spirits. As the element of Water belongs to Winter, this piece feels perfect to share on the eve of the Solstice.
"As we descend into the labyrinths at the lowest depths of mountain caves, we enter the realm of the zhi, the spirit of water. The zhi are the psychological counterpart of the thermal geysers, the fiery springs that spurt up from the darkness at the center of the underworld...The zhi open the door to the palace of the dark goddess, the place of transformation and return, where yin becomes yang and inert matter comes back to life. Thus, in the place of deepest darkness, our return journey to the light begins." 

I took this picture today on one of the shortest days of the year near Alberts Landing in Amagansett. The sky was brilliant and clear and the winds were tickeling  the Phragmites as they swayed to and fro all the while making the most amazing sounds. 
Wishing everyone a beautiful solstice!

Wednesday, August 19, 2015


As I am deepening and widening my studies in trauma and somatic healing,  I am  studying nature with a fresh and keen eye. I am observing how animal and plant structures are designed to protect vital internal information and life force. 
Nature is resilient. 

I am also observing how pods protect seeds, shells protect animals, ribs protect internal organs,  and cocoons protect the transformational process of growth and the elegance of an emerging butterfly. 
This past week, a swallow tail butterfly came to my screen window at night. It stayed throughout the evening and during the early morning hours it flew away as gently as it had arrived. The wings of the butterfly were nearly transparent and the right lower wing tattered. The resilience of the butterfly is astounding. How could such thin and frayed wings move through the air effortlessly? 

For two days now I have been thinking about resilience and capacity. In my professional work I support people in the building of capacity through their nervous systems. As my clients grown in capacity they also embody their structures so that they may live more fluidly.
The ancients believed the medicine to be like water, and the ultimate goal is that we be able to move with the natural flow of life, from the depths of our soul to the heights of the heavens. Perhaps what they were really suggesting is that we live more embodied, much like the butterflies, dolphins, and whales. 

I recently came across this quote in Dr. Peter Levine's book In An Unspoken Voice,
 by D.H. Lawrence that is a beautiful description of touching into the eternal wisdom of the body. 

"My belief is in the blood and flesh as being wiser that the intellect. The body-uncoscious is where life bubbles up in us. It is how we know that we are alive to the depths of our souls and in touch somewhere with the vivid reaches of the cosmos."